getting old rant....

I saw a recently taken picture of me and have to admit, I am an old lady. I go back and forth in my mind about whether to try to look younger...  make-up, hair.... etc.  But then I really want to figure out if I would feel better if I did that. Could I fool my mirrored self?   Today my foot hurts so badly I took a pain killer, thinking that would give me complete relief for a few hours. That didn't happen which scares me. I have reached the point where I do not trust any medical or surgical options any more and I seem incapable of doing what it takes to lose weight. I know that would be good for me in all ways... but then I go and eat something else.... Veganism and the extra nutritional supplements I have been taking seem to help some with some of my symptoms, but I have developed new ones in response to going off the prescription drugs I quit, too. Maybe I should sign up for a month at the indoor pool.... It is expensive but if I used it, it would help with the foot pain and also the weight loss.