sad?

I am wondering if I have SAD... The house is dark. Very dark. Night lights turn on automatically, throughout the day, if we don't shut them off. But Ira doesn't want to add skylights, saying it would look bad on the roof line.   I am trying to separate that issue from the reality that I want more sunlight in my life. So, I am thinking I will go sit on the dock during the day time. Try that and see how it works.    I am angry about Poppy, too. And Ted.  And I cannot talk to anyone about it at all.